Monthly Archives: May 2012

What the sun brings…

Well, well, well… the sun is shining and it’s hot! This is a rare event in England, so people do make the most of it. From my lovely balcony, I can see everyone on the beach. Some bring tents, some bring chairs, some bring bikes and some just bring themselves and walk around everywhere. I actually did the exercise of watching one single person for about 15 minutes and this guy simply walked around the beach aimlessly, with no intention of getting anywhere in particular. I guess this is what the sun and the heat do to us. They make us feel free to just let the legs and arms and mind do whatever they fancy. I’ve been to the beach today too and it was great! I put my towel down and just sat there for some time, with no time to watch and nothing to do… I just wanted to feel the rays and the light breeze on my skin… what a nice feeling! It makes you feel like anything is possible somehow.

After a pub sesh with Lee and two good friends, I came back home. And then did something that I’ve been planning to do for a long time. I sat and wrote something that I have been waiting for inspiration to write for a long while and I felt so good for it. It’s not a big deal, but I felt the inspiration going through my veins, I could feel the words coming out from my core to the paper. I handwrote everything as well, which is something I do when I’m not so sure of what I’m doing. I like to review it and then scribble all over it, but keeping my silly ideas there,  so I can always look back and see where every single bit came from.

This little dream might come to nothing, but I’m glad that the sunshine made me take a first step. The sun is such an almighty presence and it makes things so much clearer and happy. Bring on sunny days… my font of inspiration at the moment.

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Just in time

Time…. what a precious commodity!

We all love to say that we are busy, busy, busy. It seems to make us feel important. The question is… are we, really? If you were to stop and analyse where your time goes, I bet you’d be surprised.

There are so many things that we do that we don’t account for in a day. Checking Facebook, for example. The vast majority of us do it. I probably spend a good 20 minutes to half an hour each night, just browsing and reading things that usually amuse me. I don’t do it at work because I’m usually quite busy there and that is the truth. Ok, Facebook can be considered entertainment. But how about the endless shitty programmes that we watch on the telly? Are they bringing anything positive to our lives? I am guilty of that too, hence one of my New Year’s resolutions was to watch less TV and read more. It seems to be working so far…

I used to think that I couldn’t be the perfect daughter, sister, girlfriend and eventually mum if I didn’t have loads of time to dedicate to each of these roles, which is why I find becoming a mum so scary. I used to think that my loved ones deserved lots of my time, be it in thoughts or in real activities. I still do. However, I now see that we all jugle our time and spend it with different people, so even if I had all the time in the world for my mum and dad, they probably wouldn’t be able to reciprocate. What we have to do is make sure that we spend quality time. This, to me, means giving someone 20 minutes of your time but with no distractions. When you speak to them (even if it’s on Skype), you look into their eyes. When you go somewhere with them, you don’t check your phone all the time. When you are listening to them, you are actually listening and not thinking that you forgot to defrost the chicken for tonight’s dinner.

Something else related to time that strikes me nowadays is how people are averse to spontaneity. Gone are the days when you’d knock one someone’s door for an unannounced visit. That seems to be rude, especially here in England. The surprise element of seeing the face of someone you like having in your life is wiped away by numerous phone calls and text messages trying to arrange a suitable time to spend a few moments together. I say a few moments because most of the time we are just “fitting people in” as well, making life feel like one giant puzzle where people are tiny pieces.

I think we have to remember that every day is a new day and offers a chance to see something you have never seen before. Every day we have a chance to surprise people, to be spontaneous, to make people smile. We don’t need to box off times to be happy, to do errands, to see loved ones, to work and to make dinner. We can potentially have it all at once. I think the secret might be in stopping to see life as this game where we have to play our cards carefully. We should just throw all cards upwards and laugh when they all come down, messy and scattered everywhere.

I guess that what I’m trying to say is that we have to stop being so organised with time, we should just let things happen, just go with the flow more than writing it all in the diary. Ok, some people, especially the ones with kids, will say that they have to be organised, but I challenge you to just let it all go for a week and see what happens. If you don’t limit yourself, then maybe you will be surprised… maybe you’ll feel freer and maybe you will find yourself naturally spending your time just with what/who really matters.

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Hug day

This post is about mums. Today, Mother’s Day, is probably the day I wish I was in Brazil the most. It’s the day to hug your mum as tight as you can and let them know how much they mean to you.

Mums are special creatures. I mean, I have always been scared of trying for a baby myself, as one of my worries is that I won’t be able to cope. Imagine a human being depending on you for everything and you having to give up your own time to do everything for them. People tell me that it becomes a pleasure but, if I’m honest, I find it hard to believe. It’s scary! And this is probably why I admire mums so much. They give up a lot to look after their little ones with so much dedication and love.

I’m a very lucky daughter as well, because I have two mums. I have my mum mum and my step mum, which is my mum, really. Together, they give me all the support I need and are always there for me. They are so different as well, each of them with their special qualities that together make one super mum. So, in a nutshell, I have a super mum to thank today. A super mum made of two that help me live my life by helping me, enlightening me, laughing with me, crying with me and making me feel loved every step of the way.

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Music for the soul

Don’t you sometimes feel that it would be a lot more appropriate if we had a sound device permanently with us, so every single situation we live in life can have its own soundtrack? Just like in the movies, music sets the scene, makes us think and provides the background for what we go through.

I have my favourites. They are below. Enjoy (or not) and share your favourites too. It’s fun!

This song makes me want to waste time people watching and having the wind on my face…

This one by Phil Collins makes me smile and think of the best in everyone. I do prefer Cindy Lauper’s version, though…

This one makes me think anything is possible…

This is about all those past lovers… It makes us ask the “what if” questions and be a little blue for 3 minutes or so.

This one makes me think of the people that I love and are always there for me.

This one is about realising that we love someone. Aww…

This is my favourite song of all time. It makes me tingle all over…

This can one makes me feel easy like Sunday morning…

This one never fails to put a smile on my face…

If I close my eyes, I’m living in London again when I listen to this one…

I just love his voice…

This one makes me so emotional I can cry every time…

This is my second favourite of all time…

Her voice is so amazing… and the lyrics, ahhhhhh! (lyrics by Tom Jobim)

This one makes me feel young and free…

So, these are my 15 favourites. What are yours?

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The wall

I’ve always been a creature of the night. I like being awake until the early hours and, when I was a teenager, my dad used to get extremely mad at me because I enjoyed my afternoon naps when the sun was out, so I could stay awake at night, reading, writing or watching movies. I’m not averse of daylight, in fact I really enjoy the sunshine, but my favourite part of the day is when the stars and the moon are out. I think I particularly enjoy that part of the day when it’s getting dark but it’s not entirely dark yet. Everything is washed by this magnificent blue, like a dark royal blue, and the whole world just looks so beautiful. You have to be careful to catch it, though, as this bit of the day usually goes quite fast.

I’ve been meaning to do something about our corridor wall for a while now. However, same as with writing, it takes time to find the inspiration to do stuff like that. I used to look at the wall every single day and imagine some possibilities for it, but never felt completely ready to actually do something. Until yesterday. Yesterday, starting at my favourite time of the day, I got all my pictures, bits of art in postcards and cuttings that I had and went for it. Now, don’t get me wrong, I’m not an artist or anything like that, but I do enjoy putting things together. I like colours, I like compositions and I like the effect of some things when they are next to each other.

So last night I got all my frames, my pictures, scissors, paper and imagination and started my wall project. It took a while. I don’t normally do a composition on the floor, like maybe you should at first and then hang it all on the wall. I hammer the first picture up and then the rest kind of flows from there.I don’t know what the correct way of doing this is, but I’m not sure this matters, really.

I was very pleased in the end. It’s probably nothing too special, but it is a quite accurate translation of what was in my head, which is why it is already so special to me. I love it! Lee loves it too (thank God, since he had no input in this one!).

I guess what I’m trying to say is that creativity is something you can’t force. Sometimes it just comes to you and you feel so totally compelled to do something with it that things just happen in their own way. I could have tried to do this ages ago, but I’m sure that the result wouldn’t have been half as good as yesterday’s. I am pleased to look at it, especially because every single picture has a meaning to me. The wall is below. I hope you like it too.

 

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